We the Aquarians.....

Today my dear friend just confirmed that all aquarians are going through a turmoil. Its the same for all of us (well almost all).
We all seem to be deserting our roommates for no fault of theirs....
We all love them dearly that the importance it our life still remains unchanged...
we all try to escape from the house for no reason.....
We all are looking to find our reason to keep us happy- an internal reason.....
We all are looking to break away from the ramshackles
We all our looking to be alone, yet at the same time with only one person by us all the time..

Initially I thought it was just me, but it was reassuring that there were three other people- all aquarians- with the same feeling. What was even more interesting was that, our reasons to feel like that were also the same. That was too much of a coincidence for me.

A friend once said, that to jump back in life you should hit rock bottom. What do you do when you do not reach that phase for a very long time. Various people use various ways to hit rock bottom- Alcohol, cry, anger, run. I for once have exhausted all conventional ways off hitting rock bottom. Each time it has only failed. What makes it worse in my case is that, I cannot talk. I wish I could cry it out loud and get done with it! That would make my life a lot easier. But that cannot happen. This is something that my lips will have to remain absolutely sealed till I find someone whom I can absolutely trust- which still remains my akiles heel.

The problem now is that people have begun to notice the evident changes. Everyone is trying to find a reason for my worries. Some link it to India and home sick, some link it to friends, blah blah... again, the truth remains that only I know what bothers me and for all rationals, I have failed to deal with it. Hence, I have just left it on time. Hopefully, getting pass it will be sooner than later.....

The freaky coincidence is that, the counter aquarians are also facing the same issues. On a larger picture, I realized, we all know whats going on our minds. The difference is, some have found someone to speak about it, some have come to terms with it and some are still troubled and are trying to deal with it.